Today

As I sat here at work NOT working, just thinking about randomness, I realized that I'M A SENIOR!!!!!...my college experience is almost over! Just looking back at the past 3 years have been great honestly... Eventhough ive spent most of it complaining. Ive REALLY learned alot about myself, and that, you can't learn in a book. College is def more than classes and the degree, its about introspection and pushing yourself. Setting a goal and accomplishing it, proving to the work, that im capable of coping with all the BS you can throw at me.

Other than classes, ive learned to keep my friends CLOSE, and leave everyone else alone. I was never really THAT guy trying to be cool with everyone, but I just realized that through first hand experience that people are wack as hell if you really pay attention. For more reasons that one, ive come to the conclusion that Im not here to impress everyone else. I have my circle and i really do care what anyone else thinks. Most college interactions are fake, people who just want to up there facebook numbers and look cool in public by sayin "hold on let me go say hey to____". But thats life...people are characters...

I also learned that I am alot more capable that i imagined...just relfecting on those nights where i thought "fuck! how am I gonna get this done" or "dam this test will kill me"...well...im here...with basically 1 semester left and another of just cruising.
Life is not a straight line, life is not about an outcome, Life is truly about the journey...as cliche as that sounded, its so true. Life throws all kinds of twists and turns at you. had to change my major after not passing the same class..TWICE. It caused me to do some introspection and decide what I really wanted to do...and thatw as teach...I realized that a degree in business, was really just fulfilling my want for money, not my need to make a difference in the world. Im thankful for this conclusion.

Life is filled with choices, MANY MANY MANY choices, despite what the crowd is doing, I know what is Carrington, I know who I am, and I know who Im NOT...

College is def an experience that Im glad i got to exerience, as much as I hated it. And if i could do it again I would have gone FARTHER from home, but i suppose 8 hours is fine...

Florida State University Class of Spring 2011'

Fawwwwwk

Maybe I just surrounded myself with a rare breed of females before but as of late I keep hearing females complaing about "how hard it is to be a female". Maybe I been ignoring this all my life but dam shits annoying.

What I DONT wanna hear

1.)I understand you gotta go get a perm or whatever but shit why are you complaining? you can either be Sideshow Bob or go take care of your hair...simple. I dont care about your showercap shit or hair net or whatever you have to do to make your hair manageable in the morning...no sympathy points round hear. Some girls have natyrally great hair and some girls gotta use harmful acids to get their stuff tammed. Thats life...nodaysoffplease

2.) "theres so much pressure being a female...expectations an all" Hush...be you...females feed the cycle "being on point" and then again thats all up to you and how you want to carry YOURself. At the end of the day do what makes YOU happy. Stop looking at the next female and comparing yourself to her. You know men/guys/boys dont honestly care about alot of the shit females do and isnt that your ultimate goal?

3.) "Im a GOOD woman, can I just get a GOOD man". <-UGHHH. First of all since when is it cool to proclaim shit that youre SUPPOSED to be doing? I understand youre a "good" girl but shit arent you SUPPOSED to be?...you arent entitled to anything. And secondly if you truly were a "good" woman youd understand that a GOOD man will find you. There is nothing more attractive than a woman DOING whats shes supposed to be doing. Dont dum it down and dont be stuck up...know your worth and life will be great .

I may expound on one of these later but for now this is it..
OKbye =]

B.M.F .....jk

I picked up some other RL things but ill post later

Things to remember:
-Things are usually cheaper "out of season"
-Quality > yea you know
-Thrift stores are great
-Be patient

Timing is Everything

In my 20 years of living I really believe that as important as it is to have action...timing is more important. There goes the saying "A day late and a dollar short" or "wrong place wrong time"...time seems to be the more important variable. In the first analogue even if you had the right amount you would still be a day LATE. In the second instance, its not so much being in the wrong place, its the fact that its the wrong time to be there.

I look back at a few situations in my life and thing "wow timing was so off with that" Just to name a few, the situation with the girl in Connecticut, well actually ever ex girlfriend honestly. VERY compatible people, just bad timing. I know know how to combat that. Whos to say its bad timing except for in hindsight. I have a laundry list of people who I met at the wrong time though. And I cant help but wonder what would happen if I was to be born 2 years earlier?..that would put me at a more equal age for either of my exes...would one of them have worked? Or would me being born 2 years earlier put a strain on my parents, were they READY at that time? ...who knows

but in retropsect, i believe that timing thus far has been perfect for my life. Ive learned ALOT of things. I know for a fact that if I found myself in/around Connecticut from 07-09 my life would be COMPLETELY different probably for the worse....ahaha but good at the moment dont get me wrong.

but after reading a post from the boy Jozen(UntillIGetMarried.com) I believe that there ARE infact people you should have never fallen for. What if with the creation of the internet making the world smaller, you mistakenly meet people you shouldnt have met? I know without the internet I wouldnt know nearly as many people...including my ex. What if i clouded my life with people who shouldnt have been there?...only due to technology. hmmm crazy right?

But back to timing, I do believe that every relationship ive had has failed dude to timing..
1- my immaturity in regards to my perspective
1.5- lol she was young...im good on that
2- her NEED for a husband, and my NEED to be a college student and be free
2.5- by the time she was able to commit id lost interest
3- she was focused more on rekindling a relationship with her mother than me
4- no clue to be quite honest

Easy

Aside from being angry, being ignorant has the be an easy second for easiest state of being.Ignorance is a 2 part thing though. Those who dont know but refuse to know better. Also those who make generalizations based on less than sufficient evidence. Girls who say "guys suck" or americans who say, " Muslims are crazy". I dont know where this post will go but i'd just like to convey my hatred for lack of knowledge and opinions based on that. Its easy to be ignorant, thats WHY alot of people are that way, which sucks. I hate that people take the easy way out of life, and perpetuate being BASIC...

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[Disclaimer] Please hold all opinions, I don’t want them


Why are you living?
Is the pursuit of live your motivation?
Why not Death?
Instead of living for Life you live to avoid Death?
Why?
You don’t want to die yet you have no reason to live?
Why are you afraid to die if the afterlife promises our true happiness?
I won’t include scriptures...
Everybody wants to go to heaven but NO one wants to die, word to Andre 3000
How is that?

I toyed with actually verbalizing this for a while...but...

I. Am. Not. Afraid. Of. Death. Or. Dying.

Not to marginalize the gift of life, but I refuse to live afraid of anything. Fuck terrorists, my life moves on. Fuck disease, I’ll live life till my last day. Fuck negativity, because your words are only effective for as long as it takes you to formulate them.... There...and GONE.

If you truly do believe in an afterlife, then why are you so afraid of ending the earthly life?...serious question

...so really and truly, Don’t mind me, I'm just passing through

Acceptance

Vintage Levi's Denim

Vintage Levi's Denim Jacket( ebay $30)
RL Bear Tee($15)
Banana Republic pants($5 from Goodwill)
Nike "Clerks" Air Max 90s($150 ISS)


Kanye West, David Beckham and Zac Efron are really consistent with the denim jacket....I have my eye on the new Levis trucker denim jacket next. I really like the concept of denim jackets, it just sucks that Im in Florida when it doesnt really get cold enough for a denim jacket. Thankfully I go to college in North Florida when its cosistenly 30-15 degreesfrom january to march! Still have a ways to go till I build the confidence for "double denim" though






ranger boots and classic all stars coming soon...