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Sweet innocence
you, through my eyes gives me hope
...or atleast a smile
you and those red pants, did i mention I love red pants?
that girl, with the accent from somewhere with cows in the distance

sometimes i just want you around

060911

Give it all you got, till you got it all...A major precursor to progress is to set aside ones pride in the name of positivity. God's promise was not that life would be easy, but that he would bring you through...over adversity. Dont be too proud to ask for help, and never feel as though you are too good for something...especially when you have no foreseeable options. Very few things in life are absolutely pointless, its a matter of perspective. Find the benefit in adversity and hard times... The past 6 months have shown me that hard times encourage focus. When doors start closing, you have a way of starting to narrow your sights on your destination...Focus and progress are not exclusive to struggling, but the struggle does fast forward the thinking process in my mind... in other words when "shit gets real" youre forces to make a decision...

In life mistakes are inevitable..there are metaphorical "wrecks",where a bad choice leads to a bad outcome, singularly, then there are series of bad decisions. Its important to not let adversity and negatively lead to further bad choices. Be honest with yourself...be real...look at where you are, and look at where you wanna be....then figure out the disconnect, the things that need to happen to get where you want to be.

*heavy sigh*
lets see what happens
I think I heard ice cracking...

What she told me....

So theres this girl right. Very attractive, the light skin long hair long legs, bowbowbow type girl. We have a bit of history together, nothin "serious", just a series of hoodrat events on her part.....involving the song buss-it-wide-open, basketball, tennis, Indian food and a football stadium...you know all the ingredients to a real memory.

(pause)

dont really know where i was going with this
ill be back later


*comes back later*

we're just friends
and Im perfectly fine with that
though I do have a part of me that wants to be more....
our relationship is waaaay more healthy as friends
she needs me as a friend, and thats what I shall be

FB chat 0612011

...sometimes people dont even know how true the words are that they speak. Surround yourself with people who are DOWN for the cause. No man is an island...and lord knows I need help.

The worst

...the greatest fear is the fear of the unknown
the greatest obstacle is the glass ceiling
Obstacles unforeseen but most definitely THERE

Balance

while that dark side of my mind continues to be just that....dark, there is a lighter note to cancel it out.

I am blessed with opportunity
I just hate waiting...
So thankful for what ive been given
the good and the bad, are shaping me
...this multifaceted individual
this existence of potential
...this
....me
I just hate waiting
I just want to press fast forward
I just want to live my life
...and not be scrutinized about my past

I know God is here...I know he is working on me
Im trying...
I will be fine

Getaway

with perfect timing I got a getaway...
a moment of clarity
a moment to be me
...its so cancerous to live this double life
Im seriously pushing my breaking point
but through it all im back...3 days later
ready to continue this...thing...life