Through it all

...through it all remain true
life has endless inspirations, beautiful inspirations
never steal, only incorporate
there is only one YOU,dont mess it up by being someone else

seriously

"Don't spend your life with someone you can live with, spend it with someone you can't live without"

single-handedly one of the dumbest quote ever....What kind of person would I have to be to depend on someone to the point "i cant live without" them? S im supposed to just pack myself in a box and die when/if my gf leaves? BITCH-HELLA-PLEASE!... Im gonna live my life regardless of who is around me. I might WANT you around, but shit ill be damned if i NEED someone around. I want my partner to enhance my life, not be the basis of my existence...as if i wasnt living before, and wont be living if they leave...

...call me heartless but shit, i cant go for that

But why...

Im single because i really dont think im capable of being with a person....sure i have friends who i love unconditionally AND WILL DO anything FOR. But when it comes to a girlfriend, i really dont think im capable of accepting someone, flaws and all and still finding them just as attractive. IM SUCH A MENTAL PERSON....i analyze everything. No clue why, but it is what it is....

Im an only child...im fine being alone, and to some extent my personality encourages me being a loner. I do things on MY time, i dont look for people when i wanna make moves....i suppose im too independent when i comes to my peers

Because im so laid back, i attract girls who are more aggressive...that makes sense, girls who would make he effort to let her presence be known.....girls who know me before i even know they exist. Girls who like me, more than I like them......aka girls who annoy the shit outta me...

[addition] Just looking at what others call "love"....i know im no capable of that....
no one person's happiness will never be the basis of my own aside from my kids...
My life will never revolve around an individual, aside from my kids
I dont want to reenact "the notebook", i seriously hated that movie

something ive learned

....few people know me.
Even my closest friends, dont know "me".

Having a convo with my homegirl about relationships, she painted me as the most shallow guy ever. Really offensive, as if i'd never date a girl who wasnt a 10. Word to my ex, if we are compatible based on personality im down for the cause forreal.

I may joke about lightskin shit, or other aesthetics, but that shit doesnt matter as much as people think.

...to some extent i feel like im on a selfmade island.....no one person knows everything about me, so i have to BE different versions of myself to different people. Its the inability to be real with alot of people....they dont want "Real"....people have this pre-composed opinion of me when they meet me....shits wack...

...one day i will probably break, but til then...Charades for everyone

....then she said

" i wanna live through you. I feel like you have the best life"

....i got alittle mad. By no means is my life perfect. She has a corporate job that flys her around. Were both single though...

..i guess is just one of those things, you dont know my life, you just know the outer appearance of it.

Passing through

...thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.

Complexity of me

As a person, I cant even explain who I am. Im more than my preppy attire, or a closet full of sneakers. Im more than a mind full of rap/Hip Hop lyrics. Above all....im more than my mistakes....believe it of not.

...but the one thing I am, is genuine.


I feel sorry for anyone who is ever faced with the question, " C*********n?....who is that?"

...I just am, honestly *shrug* and i think its better that way